Who Are You Looking Up To?

Last week was my mom’s birthday. She would’ve turned seventy-six. She’s been gone for four and a half years already, which doesn’t seem possible. Some parts of my life stopped when she died. I lost some relationships, I dealt with a lot of the grief alone and being misunderstood, and even the things that used to bring me joy no longer did. I didn’t know how to live without the one person who loved me unconditionally.

My mom was so funny. When I would call her on her birthday, she’d tell me how many people had already called her. She kept tabs. She just loved her birthday. Not that she wanted any gifts, but I think feeling loved on the day you came into the world is a great feeling. It also was the one day that she was guaranteed calls from those she loved the most.

I miss her and her innocence. She didn’t keep up with the politics or certain situations around the world. She focused on what was immediately in her life and who was in her life. The stuff overseas or what didn’t happen in her own backyard didn’t matter. She was happy in her own little part of the world. Sometimes I got frustrated with how simple she liked her life. I wondered how she couldn’t wonder what was happening outside of our little town.

But now I get it. There are very few times I watch the news anymore. All I do is worry if I hear about it. I don’t want to be naive (although I really am gullible), but I also know the anxiety that could come from worrying about situations I have no control over. I have always thought, “If it was really important, Daniel will let me know.” (Although I don’t think he knows I rely on him for that. lol)

As we all know, there’s much unrest in our country right now for so many reasons. We are going down roads that shouldn’t be traveled, let alone even be there. There’s so much hate and division that I can’t stand to watch the news. I try to avoid it, but with social media, it’s difficult. What has happened to our country? Where is the “one nation under God”? When did the Christian beliefs of our founding fathers get pushed aside? Who did that? Who started that? And why? Was it so bad to have the belief that Someone greater than us was there to help and guide us and our leaders?

People are looking to others to be their gods. They’re looking for an earthly savior who can right all of the wrong. Everyone wants what they want….and a lot of it is different from the next person. So who gets to their way?

I’ll tell you Who gets their way: God. He is the One Who will make everything right again. He is the only One Who can right all of these wrongs and bring justice to the people who need it. He alone is the Judge and the Jury. When I come face to face with Him, I want Him to look at my life and see that I followed Him and not this world. I want Him to acknowledge that when I fixed my eyes on things above…on His plans that I don’t always understand…that my eyes stayed there. They didn’t stray. I didn’t create idols out of George Floyd, Donald Trump, or anyone else on this earth. Not even my husband (who I tend to sometimes put up there with God…where even he is never meant to be).

Don’t get me wrong. I don’t hate anyone. In fact, there are quite a few people I really love! I’m just choosing to keep my eyes fixed on God and pray hard that this mess of a country gets sorted out…and soon. Either that, or Jesus, please come.

As I remembered my mom on her birthday last week, I realized I long to be more like her every day. Yes, she had flaws…we all do. (I have more than she did, I’m afraid!) What I’m admiring at this moment was her ability to love those around her, not pay attention to the worrisome events she couldn’t fix, and love like Jesus. She knew Jesus had a handle on it all and had a plan. That’s what I’m trusting, too. Maybe my trust is too simple for most people, but that’s okay. The only approval I really need is God’s.

It looks like it’s all falling apart, but perhaps it’s all falling into place. Only God knows and I have to continue to trust Him during all of this.

How about you? Are you looking for an earthly savior or are your eyes fixed on Him?

12 Comments

  1. Stephanie

    Yes! I love this! My husband gets wrapped up in the news and wonders how I can stick my head in the sand. I always tell him I’m protecting my peace. God is in control, and is working for our good, and hopefully not leading us toward the Babylonians. 🤣🤣🤣

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    • rochelleb@me.com

      Yes! I know this past winter (before the election, etc) there were a lot of people glued to the news. I understand wanting to know who our next president will be, but it can turn obsessive. My comment was, “God will still be on the throne.” Thank goodness, right? ☺️

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      • Theresa Boedeker

        Your mom sounds a lot like my dad, who passed 5 years ago. Letter in his life he only wanted to watch happy movies. He said because there is enough sadness in the world. I am pretty much to that point now. No real sad movies. Very little news. And focusing on what I can control and change and trusting God for the rest.

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        • Rochelle

          Yes, Theresa. They sound alike! 🙂 It takes some preparation for me if I’m going to watch a movie I know will be sad. I have to be in the right mindset otherwise the sadness is just too much. I guess I’m sensitive…

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  2. Hadassah

    Love this post! I love the way you honor the memory of your mother. And your positive, hopeful outlook grounded in trusting God. We need this!

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    • rochelleb@me.com

      Thank you, Hadassah. 💗 I missed a couple of comments last week…and this was one of them. My apologies. Thank you for your kind comment. We can all use a little more hope! 🙏 God bless!

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  3. Susan

    I loved this. I think we have been following Jesus down the same small town road lately. It seems He has been leading me back to what is more simple, more important and a lot less worrisome lately. (I admit I kind of lost my way) I am glad to have you as my co-traveler on this journey.

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    • rochelleb@me.com

      Thank you for your comment, Susan. It appears I missed a couple last week…I apologize! It does appear we’re on similar paths…back to the simpler versions of life. So happy to have you as my co-traveler, as well! Bless you…

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  4. Nikki

    This was such an encouragement! Thank you so much for sharing your heart. I too don’t watch the news and tend to not focus too much with what is going on in the world as it can provoke so much worry. I was so encouraged as you shared about your wonderful mom’s life and to just keep our eyes on Jesus! Such an important truth!! Thank you so much friend!

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    • Rochelle

      Thank you, Nikki! I’m happy you received some encouragement. 🙂 I often wondered if I was the only one who doesn’t watch the news or keep up with everything. But it can consume me and my thoughts…and that’s not good. So, we can stay informed, but with just enough knowledge that it doesn’t constantly bring us down. Thank you for reading and commenting, my friend!

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  5. Kara

    Rochelle, your mom reminds me of me, how I shelter myself so much from outside news – when there is such unpleasantness in the world and sin is readily glorified in our news, I usually prefer ignorance! I’ve learned I do need to cut out certain things in my life that will pull me astray (like depressing news stories) in order to better keep my eyes on Him.

    Thanks for sharing this beautiful and thought-provoking post ❤️

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    • Rochelle

      Thank you for sharing that, Kara. I love that my mom reminds you of yourself. I’m at that point, too. (As a teen, it wasn’t always “cool” if someone said you reminded them of your mother. But now? I love it. If I could only have half of her strength, I’d be golden. She was wiser than I ever thought!) Anyway, I’m there, too…I don’t want depressing stories and the news is full of them. So, I will stick with ignorance (most of the time) with you. 🙂 I need to cut a few things out of my life, as well, to fix my eyes on Him more and more. Thank you for reading and commenting. I appreciate it…and you!

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