Freedom in Forgiveness

Boy, do I make mistakes.

Sometimes it feels like I make so many and will never be forgiven for them. My mind is like a movie reel that replays the mistakes over and over and over again.

“What did you do that for?”

 “Didn’t you learn last time?”

“Why do you keep screwing up?”

It’s almost as if each morning I wake up and plan to make so many mistakes even before the boys leave the house for school. Of course, I don’t plan on that, but it happens…it happens way too often. That movie reel just keeps playing…

“Again?  Really…again?”

Generally, when I make a mistake or do something unkind towards someone, I apologize and ask for their forgiveness.  Sometimes I get it, sometimes I don’t…at least not at that moment. That pierces my heart. I think I want their approval so I can forgive myself.

When I know I’ve messed up, I do try to live differently. But just like every single human on the face of this earth, I continue to mess it up. Sometimes in big ways, sometimes just with myself.

I am imperfect and I am a sinner.

Now, don’t get me wrong. I’m not justifying what I do and what I continue to do. I actually feel like Paul writing to the Romans. Starting in chapter 7 verse 15:

I do not understand what I do. For what I WANT to do, I do not do–but what I HATE, I do. (Emphasis is mine)

Verse 17 says:

 As it is, it is no longer I, myself, who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18) I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.  For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19) For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing.

Skipping to Verse 24:

What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death?  25) Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord! 

We’re all born into sin. We’re not immune to it. We sin on purpose and we sin without knowing it. It’s plain and simple: we are sinners.

But the story doesn’t end there.

 Right after Paul speaks of the wretched man he is, he writes this in Romans 8:1-2:

Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death.

 Every single day, I need Jesus.

Every single moment, I need His forgiveness.

I need Him to set me free from sin and death.

It’s not so life can be perfect or so I can avoid trials. It’s not so I won’t make any further mistakes; it’s so when I do screw up (and I will), I can repent, turn from my ways with God’s help, and be free. That’s my goal.

Repent. Turn from my sin. Change my ways. Be forgiven. Be free.

Free from eternity in hell—free from the bondage of sin—free from that movie reel that insists on playing in my mind. The list goes on…

Without Jesus, I am nothing. I’m absolutely nothing. But with Jesus, I am forgiven, saved, loved, accepted, and totally free.

“Utterly dependent, but totally free.”

I’m guessing many of you also struggle with your own sin and guilt. It seems easier to forgive others than it is to forgive ourselves at times. The Good News is that Jesus died for all of us, to give us freedom from sin.

He knocks at our door waiting to be invited in. He’ll never push His way into our lives. He wants us to ask Him in. His invitation is beautiful…

“28) Come to me, all who weary and heavy burdened, and I will give you rest. 29) Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  30) For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”  Matthew 11:28-30

What a precious gift! An invitation to a life where we don’t have to carry the burden. We can lay it at His feet and walk away. Not to simply go back to our sinful lifestyle, as if we’re given a license to sin; but for us to lay our burdens down, turn from them, and walk freely towards a better future.

Have you accepted this invitation from Him? Have you accepted the free gift of salvation and eternal life that only comes through accepting Him as your Lord and Savior? If not, I invite you to ask Him into your life today.  That is my prayer for each of you…to experience the beautiful forgiveness that comes from the sacrifice He made up on that cross.

Jesus doesn’t want us tied up in the shackles of our sins and mistakes. He wants to give us freedom. We only need to accept it.

May you be blessed as you ponder these questions.  May you find the peace that passes all understanding…the complete peace that can only come from Him.

(I’m reposting this writing from 2016. Most of you weren’t following me at that time, so I hope you can take something away from this post. For those of you who remember it…I apologize for the repeat. It’s just been one of those times when I’ve been making mistakes and I’m longing for the freedom that comes with His forgiveness.)

 

 

 

 

 

 

9 Comments

  1. Vicki

    Awesome message my friend!!!!

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  2. Karen

    Isn’t it amazing how God brings our own words back into our lives when we need to hear that message again? I love it when that happens!

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    • Connie Rucinski

      The message I believe in every day Our crazy world pushes me to stay in the bible and know when the devil tries to hit me harder the closer to Him I believe. Thank you for the beautiful reminder of a gift

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      • rochelleb@me.com

        I’m so happy to hear you go to Scripture when you know you’re in spiritual warfare. You’re absolutely right: when the devil tries to get at us, draw closer to God.

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    • rochelleb@me.com

      Yes! I agree with you. This one was needing to be repeated right now for my own sake, but I was hoping it would bless some new subscribers, too! Thanks Karen!

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  3. Kara

    Beautiful, Rochelle. I struggle with this, too. I’m SO glad we have forgiveness through Jesus for our sins and mistakes. Aiming to walk more in His grace 💕

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    • rochelleb@me.com

      Thank you, Kara. I wish this wasn’t a struggle for me, but it sure can be. Sometimes when I least expect it! Isn’t God’s forgiveness amazing? What a model for us to follow. So grateful…

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  4. Angie Mitchell

    Wonderful message, one that I needed.Thank you.

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    • rochelleb@me.com

      Thank you, Angie. I’m glad it filled a need…that’s the goal! 🙂

      Reply

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